I am on a low carbohydrate diet. Not because I am some health goddess, but because I am currently trying to lose body fat. I want to lose body fat so that I can run more efficiently. Eating low carb/keto helps me to lose body fat. Win!
So, here’s a quick run-down of my history with weight, and how I ended up here.
I was quite an athletic kid up until I hit puberty when it became unladylike to be sporty, (plus I’m not a super co-ordinated person with a very co-ordinated sister that I could never beat) and I was deemed the smart and effeminate one in my family, so I stopped doing any kind of activity that wasn’t walking or reading (I know, right?).
Plus, my mum isn’t athletic, so I thought it was ok to take after her (even though she was a notorious dieter and terrible at exercising, and she always struggled with her weight).
So then I was 18, I had just returned from my student exchange program where I’d gained about 15kg and I weighed about 82-85kg. I had gained it so gradually while overseas that I didn’t realise how much weight I’d put on until I saw my family for the first time in 10 months. Their reactions said it all.
When I got home I began eating healthier and going for long walks, and I ended up losing around 15kg’s of the weight I’d gained within a year.
This happened repeatedly after that. I gained weight, then lost some weight, then I would end up in a relationship, and I would gain weight again. Repeat.
This has kept going until about a year ago when I decided to start focusing a bit more on being healthy not skinny. I had been a vegan for about 4 years, vego for 7 years, and it had STILL been a struggle for me to control my eating habits. I ate so many of the bad things, as well as the good things, it turned out I actually just had a bad relationship with food! No magical new way of eating was going to fix my terrible relationship with food until I started to acknowledge it.
I started eating everything again. I ate everything that I had restricted for years. But once I got over the excitement of eating everything again, I started to focus on balance, finally.
A little while ago, my boyfriend and I decided to try out the ketogenic diet (info here and here). It seems to be pretty controversial in the health world, but it does work. We both decided to try it to lose some weight, and to our surprise, we did!
He lost nearly 10kg by eating a diet of 60% fat 30% protein and 10% carbs. I lost 4kg by eating around the same macros and by running sporadically (in one month).
Then came his birthday, and we indulged slightly too much on the sweets and the carbs, which meant that we both stalled slightly, but we are back at it.
It’s pretty basic, and I know it’s not the most exciting, but we both seem to thrive off it. So we will keep going until we don’t feel as good eating this way anymore, and if that happens, we’ll stop.
So I obviously still weigh a lot more than I think is optimal for my own performance, but I am not uncomfortable in my body anymore, and I feel a lot more confident than I have before. I’m also a hell of a lot happier than I have been with myself before! I am also more aware of my relationship with food, and how I use it to treat my own emotional struggles.
We shall see!